My Contemplation

Aman and Suhani got married few months back. Theirs was a love marriage; after a lot of struggle and emotional battles they had managed to convince their parents & eventually tied the knot. Aman and Suhani was a perfect couple - made for each other, very understanding, very cooperative and full of true love. Below is an anecdote from their after marriage love life as per Aman.

Characters: Aman, Suhani and a maid

It was 8.15 AM in the morning and I could see the sun trying to peep into our room through the beautifully curtained windows. I was sitting on the couch reading the newspaper and sipping hot tea made by my beloved wife Suhani. Her tea was always special for me and would make my day. It was yet another beautiful morning with birds rhythmically chirping in the bushes & wind rustling through the leaves. I could hear Suhani from our bed room humming her favorite song “Teri ore, teri ore.” This was the first song she dedicated to me; I could remember it every time I hear this song. After that it became my favorite too.

“Didi, how many rotis today?” suddenly the maid shouted from kitchen addressing the question to Suhani.

 Suhani quickly came to the bedroom door and replied: “6 roti.”

She looked beautiful with her wet hair glistening in the few rays of sunlight and I could hardly take my eyes away from her. She winked at me to not to stare her and quickly went inside. I wished it was a holiday today and cursed our work wishing I could stop her from going to office today. I would rather prefer to hold this beauty in my arms and give her a lot of love.

I somehow managed to get my attention back to the newspaper that was in the same position since last 5 minutes as I was lost observing the beauty of nature and thinking about the most beautiful girl in my life – my Suhani.

Suhani came out wearing pink formal trousers and a perfectly fitting light pink shaded shirt that enhanced her beauty even further. I gasped looking at her, felt proud and lucky to have this divine beauty as my wife. She started applying some cream on her face, looking into the mirror. I could see her in the mirror and again lost my connection with the news I was reading. I was looking at her in the mirror and just kept looking at this divine beauty nurturing her looks gracefully.

I was brought back to the attention when she asked our maid about the tiffin: “Masi, is tiffin ready? I am already late and I hope you will not make it worst.”

The maid replied as if it was ready years ago “Oh Didi, it is already ready & waiting for your attention; as soon as you get ready, you can get it.” She then started murmuring and I could hear that she was complaining about every day scolding that she gets from Suhani for getting late in readying tiffin.

Suhani was busy in styling her hair & I could hardly take my eyes off her. Staring at her getting ready seemed more beautiful than even standing on the peak of Himalaya watching clouds passing through. She looked into my eyes in the mirror and winked; I was completely lost in her and I didn’t notice. She then turned around and I just didn’t want to lose sight of one of the most beautiful scene I was going through.

She was holding a comb in her left hand and with the right hand on her waist she looked to me with a small cunning smile and asked “Don’t you have some work? Focus on news; what are you staring at?”  

She knew that I was looking to her; she knew that how much I love observing her beauty and she love it when I look her that way, though that question was very much expected. All girls prefer to get complimented about their beauty and she was no different. I could hear the maid laughing in the kitchen; even she knew that when Suhani was in front of me, I wouldn’t see anything else. I looked at her and laughed saying “Looking at the most beautiful lady of the universe; what’s there in news I can leave the entire world for you.”   

She blushed and turned back towards the mirror and continued ameliorating her beauty. It was already 8.40 now and I could sense that she is already very late. She had to reach her office by 9.00 AM which now seemed almost near to impossible. I conveyed her that she is getting late and she almost threw all the cosmetics she was carrying in her hand while standing in front of mirror.

“Can’t you tell me that it’s already 8.40 instead of staring me; you know my boss will screw me” she shouted while she picked up her bag and started running from here and there. In return, I murmured so that she could not hear “If I would have told you, I would have missed all this and I didn’t  want to.” I kept looking at her and she sometimes looked at me with a smile saying “I know you must be telling me that you look stunning and you don’t need to waste so much time on looking better; but what to do, I am helpless, sorry darling.”   

It was a normal trend between us that we hug and kiss each other before she leaves for the office. I had an intuition that today she is late and she might miss it in a hurry. I thought to stand up and go close to the door so that it would be fast and easy for her to hug and kiss me and run for the office. But before I could stand up she fastened her sandal and opened the door, she looked at me and told giving a flying kiss “Hey Sweety, I am getting late; catch you in the evening, love you a lot, Mmmuuaahh, will miss you.” She pulled the door & ran away.

I could just mange to stand up in an awkward position - half sitting and half standing up - and as I had no option, I sat back on the couch again. I was upset and kept on thinking about it that how could she forget to kiss and hug me before leaving to office. I recalled every incident where I was hurt unknowingly by her in recent past. This was the first time, she forgot to do so. My heart and mind had a fight – Mind: “She doesn’t love you like before” - Heart: “No it was just that she was getting late” – Mind: “It was already late; it was just a matter of second” – Heart: “Its fine, not a big deal; she gave a flying kiss after all” – Mind: “It is of course a big deal, how could she forget it” – Heart: “Come on, this is the first time it happened” – Mind: “But it happened...”

I am a bit pragmatic and so I managed to listen to my heart & consoled myself saying “She was getting very late, I just hope she doesn’t get scolded by her boss.” I picked up the paper and started reading the news which I had left incomplete 20 minutes ago to avoid any further negative thoughts.

Suddenly, within a second the house door bell rang. I thought she must have forgotten something and that would add to her delay. I ran quickly to the door and opened it, seeing her standing in front of me; as expected. I immediately questioned “What happened? Did you forget anything? That’s why I always ask you to get ready before time.”

She was standing there smiling and I was confused looking her doing nothing. She was not even panicking as she was  getting late for office and further not even replying to my questions. She came close to me, hugged me and murmured in my ear “Darling, you are very bad. Can’t you stop me and tell me that I am forgetting something? I could not even imagine my day without a hug and kiss from you. For you it won’t make any difference, but for me it is very important. It says that you are with me; it says that you will hold my hand forever whatever be the condition; it says how passionately you love me. I am sorry, I forgot but I came back to get it.” I was dumbstruck and I didn’t know what to do; my eyes became moist. I held her tightly in my arms and said “I love you a lot.” I kissed her and she then ran for the office.

I scolded myself for being such a rascal and having such negative thoughts. I  just didn’t know what  went wrong. But I promised myself that from now on I will always follow my heart in all matter relating to the love of my life. After all she was the best thing which could have ever happened to me.