My Contemplation

This time I am praying for me. Obviously 99 out of 100 times when we pray, it is for self. But we sometimes do pray for others. Going back to why I am praying this time; I am worried about the future, I want one thing in my life and I can give anything for that in return. I don't know whether I am right or wrong. I don't know what will be the consequences of it, but what I know is that I want it. I think I deserve it, I think it is made for me, I think this is what I wanted and so I want it. I will not force anyone or anything for this, but I surely have rights to pray to GOD that if I deserves such a beautiful thing & if I am lucky enough that it deserves me, then I should get it at any cost.

I know people say that if you work hard for something or if you try to get something with purity, you will get it. "Agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaaho to puri kayanat usey tumse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai" - dialogue from Om Shanti Om. "When you desire something badly enough, the entire universe conspires to give it to you" - By Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist). I want the kayanat to help me, I want the entire universe help me, I want the GOD to help me, I want everyone of you to help me get what I want.

I am praying for it, I am praying for something that is mine, I am praying for something that I need badly. I don't know what plans the destiny or the GOD has for me, but I will keep doing my hard work and will keep praying to make the GOD realize that how much I need it. I am sure GOD must be having some good plans for me in future, but still what I am worried about is that one thing and if I don't get that, I don't know how will I react to it, but that would be the worst moment of my life.

I will continue praying and I am sure one day GOD will have to hear me :-)